This week is an anniversary of sorts. It was 2 years ago that we sent our application for adoption to Holt. Our first choice of country was Thailand, second choice Ethiopia. Whoa. When I think about that season, those intense weeks between the Haiti earthquake and pulling the proverbial trigger with that large envelope in the mailbox, I can’t help but get emotional. It was nothing like I’ve ever experienced before in my adult life. The stirring in my heart and the clear–SO CRYSTAL CLEAR–moving of the Holy Spirit in the direction of adoption still brings me to my knees. I remember at that time I had a Saturday morning walking buddy. She was seeking the Lord for wisdom on whether or not she and her husband should have another child. I was seeking to confirm if this decision was truly His or if it was an emotional reaction to the earthquake. I love looking back at that time and seeing how He answered. For Becky–her baby girl just celebrated her first birthday. 🙂 For me, God has provided confirmation time and again that yes. We truly had heard His voice, and I’m so grateful we obeyed.
THE absolute largest reservation we had about adopting was the financial aspect. It seemed insurmountable. Outrageous and unrealistic. Perhaps that is why God has chosen that special chapter of our story to reveal Himself in such outrageous and unrealistic ways. I cringe when I think of how humbling it has been to ask for money. Not even selling something–just asking for cash! Oh, people. That was so very hard. But OH! PEOPLE! How you responded! We didn’t even have enough for the initial application fee! And our loved ones provided before we could even ask. I had to put a brazen (ha) plea for money to pay for our homestudy–it felt so callous and crude to use my blog for such a thing. But God provided ears that heard it with compassion and not judgement. (There was probably judgement too, but those ones kept their mouths shut!) Two ginormous garage sales (that were stocked and run by volunteers for the cause), helped us make the payment for our dossier and and part of our program fee. An especially humbling–yet rewarding–old fashioned fundraising letter campaign through Lifesong for Orphans helped us raise several thousand dollars. I can’t tell you how amazing it was to watch the funds come in. $10, $25, $40, $100, $400–IT ADDS UP.
Just this last week I believe we have possibly received a pivotal confirmation of God’s faithfulness. A promised grant from over a year ago went through many stages and obstacles. It was from a very honorable, but very small organization, and there were several unforeseen challenges and miscommunications. At times we weren’t sure it was coming. And we drained every penny to cover that program fee last summer, so we have nothing for our travel expenses. We got the check a few weeks ago…and it bounced. Yep. That was kind of scary. But it turns out it was an oversight and was quickly rectified. I redeposited again on Friday. If it goes through–and I have no reason to believe that it won’t–then we should have enough to pay for our travel. Other than incidentals and little things like carseats and highchairs, WE ARE FULLY FUNDED! Can you even imagine the joy that statement brings to me?! Tears are streaming down my face at that knowledge.
I’ll never forget singing and blogging HERE about the song “Great is Thy Faithfulness.” It was a huge leap of faith for us to make this decision with no way to pay for it. But I so strongly felt the Lord telling me, ” YOU WILL NOT BE ALONE.” And that has been true is so many, many ways! We have felt more supported and uplifted and sustained over the last two years than I ever thought possible. This is what I wrote 2 years ago:
Did I ever think we’d still be waiting after 2 years? No. But I also could never imagine the blessings and growth I’d receive JUST in the wait alone. I can only imagine the joy, challenge, growth and blessings that will come we we truly BEGIN the adventure with this little man!